9/29/2006
here to blog.obviously.. big duh here. well. my blog shall be in the smallest font possible. so no one can see em.
how'd you feel if your fren hates you for no rhyme or reason? i'm like wth did i freaked up do? i mean..she's like picking on me on everything i say. like.. !!! haiix. i hate myself. if it'll salvage our frenship, i'm willing to quit council.. although i REALLY REALLY want it real bad. my own fren doesnt believe i will change for the better.. why'd anyone else? it's just demoralizing, y'know? do frens do that? is it normal? in the end, she'll prolly hate me.. and i dont even know why. ): what should i do? sigh sigh. i didnt feel that bad even when the fact that he'd never like me sunk in. i just felt crushed. depressed. but.. everytime i see him, the world crumbles into pieces.. he's everything i'd want in a guy. his face.. his.. ugh. not the point. her hating me hurts even more. dang i hate myself. i wish i knew why she'd do this. but hating someone for no reason.. is weird, eh? sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh! what should i do? accept it and back off or try to rekindle the past?
i wanna change. she doesnt believe me. instead? hmm.. say i dont deserve to be one. i hate the way i am. i hate the way i dont care about anything. so now i'm tryna change. i listen in class. dont do SUCH weird stuff and everything. does she see that? no. she picks on me. she aint gon c'mere. so crap it. i really really think i should quit council if i get in. it aint worth it. cherilyn, please dont quit if i do too. she'll prolly hate me more.. i think i'm more mature and serious now. seriously. i can count the number of times i actually felt happy today. 6. compared to the usual 20 times? ugh. it's troubling me SO MUCH!! well duh. sisters before anything else. wait. i'm not sure she's my sister anymore. i feel like i barely know her now. we've grown apart? spent too much time doin other stuff? possible. but is that any reason to hate me?! )=
cherilyn. i dont expect you to continue being frens with me unkess you wan to. i know she did a lot for you in your spat with that ass. i cant. i'll back out. i wish there was a lil somethin somethin i could do. i'd do pretty much anything.. too bad i don got the chance. oh and. dont dont choose either and go straight. go to her. its the right thing to do. great. so i lost 2 frens. what a great day this has been! -_-" sarcasm? god. i miss her more than i thought.. sigh..
that felt worse. i blogged it for the world to see. unless you do a lil somethin somethin about the font, i'm afraid you cant see it. (= cherilyn. i know you wont see this. but thank you so much for cheering me up today. without ya, i think i may haf taken the plunge all the way down. spraying and doing the d&t stuff was fun too. =D i loved the part where we just sat there, saying hi to that hot dude. haha. thinkin about it is a lil calming.. thanks TONS!! loves!! you MUST BE A COUNCILLOR TOO!! I'LL QUIT IF YOU DON'T!!!
P:S- i got nominated. will be going for selection camp.. if i'm selected again, i'll go for the interview, if i pass it, councillor!! (: wish me luck! (maybe not cuz i may quit for my frens. sigh? well. yeah. thats how much they mean to me..)
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